But alas, it is a new year and I'm going to try again. Granted, I'm not exactly off to the greatest start, seeing as how this is day 2 of the new year but only my first blog post. Apparently the procrastinator in me will never fade. It is important to me, though, that I keep myself writing. The writer in me is a part that I've always cherished, ever since I was 9 and writing stories about talking animals and Thankgivings gone awry thanks to rogue turkeys. And as an English major, it was easy to keep myself reading and writing while I was in school because it was pretty much required of me if I wanted to do well. And, being the overachiever that I am, I did want to do well. But once school ends and the writing isn't exactly required anymore, I've found that it's much harder to motivate myself to actually write. Reading is a piece of cake--I can pick up a book whenever, and always carry one with me. But writing really has been another story.
I feel like this year could be the fresh start I've been waiting for for awhile. There's a sense of optimism about this year that I've rarely felt in the past at the dawn of the new year. But really, it's already starting out to be a year of change. I'm married now, just started a new job, have a beautiful niece who I love to pieces, and wonderful friends who I might actually get to see more often now thanks to the new job. I feel like I'm finally at a point in my life where I might actually be able to reach for my goals more realistically. Go back to school, write the book that I started forever ago and have mostly halted progress on, and just enjoy life with my awesome husband, friends, and family.
So, while by now this post has surely gotten self-indulgent and long-winded (maybe that's why I've always given up in the manual journal? Hand cramps are a bitch) the moral of the story is this: The one concrete goal that I have for this year is to force the writer in me to actually write, and hopefully grow. Every day I hope to write something, whether here on this blog or in the novel that I've talked about finishing for about 2 years now. Either way, the only way to be a writer is to write. And damnit, I want to be a writer. So, even though I'm starting a day late, here's me kicking off the new year with a new goal. Hopefully I'll last longer than a week this time!
4 comments:
Let's keep each other accountable. I like when you write and I like when I write. So, it's a win win.
You know I have always had that issue as well as far as both the journal and novel. We are too much alike. But I think you can do this. You are very talented and I think you out of all the people I have ever known has that spark for greatness. I see it in you all the time. You have something special and you just need to let it out. And maybe one day I will too lol. I think this is a good idea for you. Once you start writing it will start flowing and before you know you will have a best seller and be famous and I will ride those coat tails baby!!! Lol
Annie, I love the idea of keeping each other accountable! I like it when you write too, so I think that is a definite plan.
And thanks for having faith in me Erin, and thinking there is a spark. I doubt myself so much of the time, that I'll think I have something one minute and second guess myself the next. If I write every day at least SOMETHING has to be good on a few of those days right?
Exactly! Write enough and you'll get to the kernel that will set it all free! Sometimes you gotta just purge!!!!
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