"Back then I swore I was gonna marry him some day..."

So, it's been awhile since I've blogged. Erica told me I needed to probably close to two weeks ago, and i'm just now getting around to it. I'm so lazy...you'd think procrastination would end once I finished school, but I think it's getting increasingly worse. Not good.

Anyway, part of the reason I haven't written is because I haven't seemed to have anything to write about. But, while listening to the new Taylor Swift CD (yes, Taylor Swift. Everyone has their guilty pleasures, right?) that my brother got me for my birthday, I got to thinking. In one of the songs she talks about how, when you're fifteen, if someone tells you they love you, you don't even question it. You just believe them. Relationships at 15 are new, and exciting, and it feels like the beginning and the end of the world all at once. I remember the first real relationship I had. I was a little younger than 15, but it was the same idea. He was the world to me, and we loved each other and it didn't seem like it would ever end. Until, 6 months later, it did. I still talk to that boy, and he still holds a special place in my heart, but obviously our plans to marry and honeymoon in Disney World did not come to fruition.

Anyway, thinking about that, it made me wonder, when exactly do we stop feeling that way? By the time most of us are in our early 20s--and sometimes even in our mid to late teens--we've become jaded about love. Love isn't something you always jump into head over heels. A lot of us become more cautious, second-guessing intentions. In this world I guess it's necessary. There are a lot of people out there who aren't who they say they are, or who have shady intentions. But when exactly do we lose that starry-eyed wonder and innocence that we all (or most of us, at least) have as children. When do we get to the point where we question people who say they love us? Why do we ever have to lose that? Sure, hearts get broken, and sometimes when we pick up the pieces they don't all fit back together the way they did before. And that probably has a lot to do with adult views on love. But the older I get, and the more I talk to my friends, the more I wish for the simplicity of love and friendship that existed back in my early teen years. No, those aren't the easiest years for most people, and they're not always the fondest to look back on when you're older. But at the same time, things were much simpler then, and when someone told us they loved us...I think most of us sure as hell believed them, and that thought had us walking on air and feeling all giddy inside.